It's the festive season with lights everywhere and shopping malls keeping Christmas songs on a rewind. It's the season of giving, season of feeling blessed and exchanging of presents.
Dun get me wrong, I truly feel blessed with such a loving family and a loving girlfriend, blessed that I have great buddies alongside me that I've made for the past 21-6 years of my life.

But perhaps if there was a restart button somewhere in my life (stop lying to yourself you dun wanna restart some part of your life. Really, stop those politically correct answers), I would really love to redo some parts of it. And here as cliche as it sounds, some things happen to make us stronger than who we are before.

I can't say that I'm feeling all too happy right now. Just got back my results for Semester 1. Kinda disappointed that I did not achieve what I set out to - at least a CAP 4.0 for my 1st semester which is really somewhat demoralizing to me. Yet, I cannot really blame anyone or perhaps I might seem like I'm now giving some sort of excuse to account for my 'poor' results but on hindsight, I haven't really been studying smart/hard enough for the past sem and towards the end, all I can really say is over-confidence self destruction. Maybe self explosion will be a better metaphor. Damn it man. Sigh.

Here's a physical, not mental, physical note to myself - Remember your CAP 4.0 and the pact with FF. Better achieve what I want.

It just doesn't feel like Christmas somehow. =/


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