Okay, i failed physics. Got an S. That really sucked, but i expected it, so it wasn't much of a shock in anyway.

It sucks to lose marks cause of carelessness & it's really stupid to lose that few marks especially in JC2. God, this mid year is seriously damn screwed up. Damn it.

I should go pack my books now and start getting ready to sit down and study for the holidays. No joke, this is so not ganna happen during prelims.

No more studying for the paper when it's just 1 day before and scrapping through it. Not ganna happen.

I dun like it when there are so many thoughts in my mind and i cannot sort them out, cause when i'm trying to sort out one, the other just intertwines with the former. It takes a toll out of mind. But this ain't the worst.

It's worst when i cannot come up with any ways/solutions to go around solving the problem. Well, i thought i could come up with one, but when it come to matters of the heart, things closer to me. It's a different story. Put those books aside, put planning and organizing things aside. When it comes to family, friends, subjects which i hold closer to me, i just cannot seem to do what i can do.

So many restrictions, so much uncertainty. Too little success. Is it then worth it to try? It then goes back to a basics, confidence. Yet, it can only bring me so far. Cause change is the only constant, and it's hard to adapt to change, when changes dun seem to benefit me, msb probably.

Tell me what i should do. I seriously need to improve the way i talk to friends and stuff. It feels weird when i get all tongue tied.

Shall go sleep, this whole week was super tiring, especially today. Next monday = 3 lectures = crazy. What the heck.

Byee