And that leaves only maths paper 1. Spending 3 days to study maths paper 2. It should turn out great. I should be doing well for that paper.

But i doubt so, cause my body is stopping me from picking up that pen, that calculator and that tutorials and start revising. Body inertia yo.

Papers this week was like, okay. No comments, i just wanna pass everything. Nothing much more than that.

My body clock is officially screwed because of fairy tail. 180 chapters in 2 days. That's partly the reason why i've no mood to study but on the other hand, i finished correlation and regression + sampling today. Which is awesome. I wasn't expecting myself to finish anything. So yea, DE & P&C tomorrow and that's about it. Cheers!

I've prolly say this like idk how many times in my whole life alr, procrastinating all the way and not making it happen but i think, i should start making a conscious effort to cherish the people around me.

It makes me guilty when my sister came into my room everyday and i din talk to her. Studying is one of the reasons, but i just din feel like opening my mouth & today before we had dinner, she came into my room and told me, that we haven't talked for a long time & that made me realise, i haven been talking to her as much these days & everytime she walks in the room. I know she wants to talk to me & i really deeply appreciate it, makes me feel not so lonely at home with you around.

It makes me guilty when my father stops at my room everyday to ask whether i want fruits & whether i'm doing okay in school. I'll normally reply, yeap, no need thanks & today, i realise that, he shows his love in another way.

It makes me guilty when i always vent my 'frustrations' to my mum in a way & she can pretend that nothing happens and still talks to me even though she herself knows the probability of me talking in a louder voice is there. Despite late nights she have, she never fails to wake up and make a cup of Milo for me & make something for me to eat. Fml, i feel so unfilial suddenly.

Sorry for everything.

I'll make it up, from today onwards.

I had a really nice talk with hp yesterday about almost all the random things on Earth that you can find. I just found out, that it feels weird replying a message without swearing to people like closer to me. Bonding through vulgarities, like what the heck ? That's not the point.

After talking to fat pig, i lay down my bed that night & thought & reflected on myself. I haven been catching up with my secondary school friends. I dunno what the heck do i want in life, or maybe i do, but it just seems unrealistic.

I miss laughing my hearts out with my friends. I miss going out and do stupid things with my friends. I miss shooting and cheering. I miss the good old times we all had. I miss going to the beach and hearing the waves crash against the shore. I miss lying on a patch of grass doing nothing but staring at the skies. I miss New Zealand. I miss all the beautiful things.

But i gotta move on, to make things that i'll miss when it's 10 20 30 years down the road.

Bye ;D