What goess around, comes around

Sunday, February 28, 2010; ( 9:52 PM )

It's just another thing i can't fix.

Tomorrow's Monday, the start of week 9.

2 more weeks to March holidays, you have no idea how i'm looking forward to it.

Before that is common test, not very looking forward to it though

Well, finish up some work today. Did a little big of studying and that's about it. It feels so slack despite doing quite a lot today. Gahhh.

I realized something today. That i only am myself when i'm comfortable in the environment i am in. I wun get all high and crazy with a group of people i dunno, that well. I think they'll just think i'm super weird or something. HAHAHA.

Unless i'm with some close friends, ahhh, then it dosen't really make a difference.

Dun get me wrong or something. But i cant stand it when it's so freaking obvious that somethings wrong and we just dun want to say it out. Guys die younger because they tend to keep things to themselves unlike girls.

( And here hp got this dumb quote which cracked me up just now )

It's always better to share it out then to keep it inside our hearts and appear all so sad and emotional. Come on, it's not cool, neither is it good for the body. It's just plain stupidity.

It's free of charge to share. It brightens one's mood to share.

Quote from cheena " Everything happens for a reason, the good makes us happy, the bad makes us stronger and teaches us life lessons. :D"

I think that's probably one of the main reasons why i like talking to close friends. We may not understand what each other is going through but at least, we know what's going on in each others life.

It's a nice feeling.

I read this from the Internet while killing time.

A lessons in Life:

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good or bad luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, if they be events, illnesses or relationships, life would be a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowwhere.

If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them. For the have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to who you open your heart to.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and open your heart and eyes to things you would have never seen or felt without them.

Make everyday count. Appreicate every moment and take from it everything that you can possibly can, for you may never experience it again.

Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you

don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you either

You can make your life of anything you wish. Create your own life and then go out and live it.

Bye

Live ;D

Saturday, February 27, 2010; ( 11:58 PM )

Candle in the wind

I'm looking forward to shooting camp.

Really really looking forward to it ;D

Well, today was okay. Did quite alot of work, kinda productive in a way. Went back srjc to study before heading down to compass to meet melody.

YOU'RE GANNA FAIL AQ. HAHAHA.

Having some shooting discussion now. They're seriously sick. Hah

Tomorrow's a Sunday, well, it's yet, another, Sunday.

I'm sorry if i keep my mouth shut or be super quiet these days. I'm really tired and it's taking a toll on me. Yaa know what will be the best thing now,

To hear, - - - -

Byeee

Live ;D

Friday, February 26, 2010; ( 11:30 PM )

Breathe your breath in me

I'm suffocating.

Just came back from dinner. Seafood steamboat. I can still smell the crab and prawn on my shirt. That's how nice it was.

I particularly dislike this week. Week 8. That could be the reason why i dun feel like myself these few days. It started off bad, it ended off like a typical day would just pass by. Especially Wednesday, when i had a super irritating diarreoh in the morning which just pisses me off so much. Dun ask why. I dun like the feeling of walking out a lecture without understanding anything.

I dun like the feeling when the tutors are going through tutorial and i dun understand what they are saying,

Yet, my classmates get it.

Monday, thanks cheena, you were the most unexpected person that will sms me that night. You rock. And to hp, thanks man, i thought you were sleeping already. Lol

Nevertheless, i still appreciate those kind thoughts alot. :D

Tuesday, nothing much.

Wednesday, shooting. Did not really talk much either. Studied in school library until school closes. I shall make this habit to study in school everyday already, until at least common test is over. I dun like not understanding my work. Perhaps in jc1, it's okay. Jc2, somehow or rather, understanding it beats memorizing it.

Thursday, Study again. Ct period was super funny though. Irene Ang came to speak to us. Okay, in simpler terms, the 'wife' of pck. I din know about her, until that day.

Student of Life was the takeaway.

Friday, home. At 3+pm. Wow.

Spent some time at home today. Spent some time thinking about what i was doing with my whole life. I wanted to go back to college to study, but skipped when i heard there was crab over at my uncle's house.

That's not the point.

I've been to many places all over the world. From bangkok to the states. Seen many beautiful sceneries, seen many weird people, encountered alot of unexpected time lag and memorable experiences. Every year, i would go. But i dread going overseas. Until last year.

I guess travelling really gives us a global perspective, differences in culture and practices we have in Singapore compared to the rest. I rarely took notice and today, i've realised alot of differences.

People used to tell me that i was very lucky to able to travel overseas. I told them no, i dreaded going overseas.

Today, i take back all of those words. I did not know how lucky it felt to be travelling overseas every year when some people cannot. I did not know the meaning of cherishing the times i spent with my family when i travel overseas. I kinda regret that. Whenever, i see the poor on television slogging so hard to live on, i really respect them.

Life was tough for them, but they continued to live on, continue to push on despite knowing that they will never have a good life, earning an income that merely allows them to make ends meet. They never procrastinated, persevered throughout. Despite all the technological differences, they are still happy. They like what they do. They like the simple life they have even though everyday was a pain in the ass.

& it makes me feel i'm blessed and at the same time, giving me this 'hey, why complain and give all those shit when i have a proper education and having a healthy life'. But you know, despite that consciously being reminded in my head. I still continue to complain, procrastinate, slack, go out have fun, missing out the pirioties in my life, now.

It's super exhausting this week & i really ain't in the mood to laugh, crack jokes and stuff. Waking up everyday was like standing broad jump. Going to sleep was the best, but waking up isn't. Finishing a tutorial was the best, but not understanding it isn't.

Give me the direction, i'll put a whole lot of magnitude on it. I will.

I ain't in the best moods these few days. I'm rarely like that. But somehow, these few days was just bad. Screwed.

I've got a whole lot of things to say, but i cannot type it out here.

I'm suffocating.

Fuck.

This is for XXXXX.

Heyy irritating ass. I know you're super stressed up and all that jazz these few days. Life isn't really going the way you want it to be going at this point in time. Changes are being made, more to come in the future. Let's be realistic and not run away from reality, some of your fears may come true. We all know that. The truth hurts.

BUT! Dun be afraid to ask us question despite see-ing us so stress. Cause we will be more than happy to help you. Dun feel bad, dun feel you're a nuisance. That's what friends are for. Cliche i know.

When you're on the verge of crying. Close your eyes, think of the, most beautiful, the best thing, the lamest jokes you have. It'll help.

Remember what we all said last time. You are ganna make it through this year. Your name is ganna appear on the screen after promos showing you as the top few in the cohort. And at that time, you know what i'm ganna say to the random person beside me.

"That's my friend, she isn't the best, but she's one hell of a kid".

Keep going mann bitch. You're ganna get stronger after this year.

P.s. Fuck, be honoured man. I rarely type such a long paragraph. HAHAHA.

Byee

Live ;D

Monday, February 22, 2010; ( 7:25 PM )

1 word.

Screwed.

Live ;D

Thursday, February 18, 2010; ( 10:43 PM )

I just realised this is my 300th post.

Cool

Just finish rushing maths tutorial. Actually, was just doing. DE modelling is killing my brain cells, especially the last question.

It's satisfying when i know how to do.

It sucks big time when i arrive at the answer and realized it's like abit different from the actual answer.

In which case, it's probably carelessness or some error in my concepts.

After doing it, i realized. A maths isn't for fun in secondary school. Weak foundation = Cannot do = frustrated.

Went back Sengkang & many things have changed. Our room we used to play and have the most fun has been changed into a library!?

Though somehow, it still brings back fond memories, although everything is super, to the max cui as the years goes by. Cannot expect can i ?

Everything isn't what it seemed to be. What can we do?

That's life, that's change for you.

There's lit night tomorrow & bai nian on saturday. I hope things goes well on saturday. My hands are kinda itchy to play 21 and mahjong & a minimum 3bet bridge. LOL.

Tomorrow's Friday. The best day in the week.

OHHH & there's cca! Wo Xi Huan. HAHAHA

I guess we aren't humans if we don't have problems of our own.

But i guess it's stupid if we have problems and don't bother to say it out.

It's stupid not cool.

Bye ;D

Live ;D

Tuesday, February 16, 2010; ( 10:08 PM )

Chu 3 is awesome.

Buffet at melody's house was great. The food was so much better than last years one. Support Neo Garden people! ;D

21 with super high people is dam fun.

& i haven get to hwee teng who cheat me out of me 3 three sweets for her triple 7. And there i was thinking she REALLY got triple 7. Wah thanks man.

Pengjie to sengchoon's house.

Poker chips to coins.

It dosen't hurt to gamble a little during Chinese New Year. That's what the festive is for.

And i totally agree with Sihui, we only see each other 1 time each year.

So.. see you next year! LOL

On the screwed up note,

I've none done ALOT of homework. And it's kinda late now. I'm so ganna get screwed tomorrow. I hate it when there are so many things to be done and yet i'm not doing it. Or i'm doing it, but there's a lack of time.

I especially dreaded the longggg walk from the busstop to my house. Maybe many things were on my mind, and one of the worst things that was on it is...

School's starting tomorrow. No more fun. !@#$%^&*()

I dun really like laughing my way through sometimes. It's... Not a nice feeling.

Bye ;D

Live ;D

Monday, February 15, 2010; ( 11:44 PM )

You say it best,

When you say nothing at all.

I spent my day finishing as much homework as i can & having one the best steamboats in my life. That's about it.

Tomorrow will be fun. But at the same time, the day after is ganna be hell. And so is the next.

Why is there so MUCH homework.

I aint in the mood to blog

Bye ;D

Live ;D

; ( 12:05 AM )

I took 40mins to find the cable for my camera

And another 5mins to upload some of the photos onto my blog

In total, i wasted 45mins of my life.

But it's okay. 1st day of chinese new year. Must ren. Dam

I shall not be a poser and put happy cny or happy valentine's on my blog today. :D

But do you know

This is the 4th time cny and valentine's day falls on the same day. It was in the papers or something.

I like what i wear today

I like what my sister wear today.

I like the fact that FINALLY this year i'm playing cards

I like to see people play mahjong

I like to see the tidbits, cause i think i probably gain a tremendous amount of weight when i wake up the next morning.

I DISLIKE THE HOMEWORK I GOT TO GO. SCREW IT.

That's all.

Oh, and i finish my book yesterday night. This early morning actually and i particularly like this part.

Adapted from the book Have a little faith by mitch albom

But i realized something as I drove home that night: that I am neither better nor smarter, only luckier. And i should be ashamed of thinking I knew everything, because you can know the whole world and still feel lost in it. So many people are in pain - no matter how smart or accomplished -- they cry, they yearn, they hurt. But instead of looking down on things, they look up, which is where i should have been looking too.

Because when the world quiets to the sound of your own breathing, we all want the same things:

Comfort, love and a peaceful heart.

Bye ;D

Live ;D

Saturday, February 13, 2010; ( 11:03 PM )

Give me one NINA clap!

Epic

Well, Chinese new year today. Had some reunion dinner at night. Was busy finishing my chemistry in the afternoon but obviously failed. LRAS curve shift to the left by a large extent.

Dinner has always been great. I cannot wait for the lunch tomorrow. My uncle's prawn noodle is the best manzxz. I could smell the soup before i left his house just now.

This year's chinese new year seems to be a little dead.

Is it just me, or every festival these days seem to be kinda anti-climax and quiet at some point in time.

The festive of joy has somehow, lost, it's vibrancy.

Visiting tomorrow means tidbits and ang paos! :D

Was on facebook ytd and happen to stumble upon this:

I miss you, but i don't want to text you, cause i know you don't miss me.

That's probably one of the reasons why i rarely start sms-ing.

It's kinda true

Bye ;D

Live ;D

Friday, February 12, 2010; ( 10:12 PM )

Cousins' wedding. I just sorta love this photo. It wasn't dark clouds when this was taking place. Good photoshop skills + Good pictures = TooGood a Picture

Chinese new year celebration today was ok-ok only. Wasn't expecting the finale to be something like this. Compare this to Thanksgiving last year, it was totally a different experience / feeling. Maybe, it's just Chinese New Year

Stayed back to go for chemistry make up lecture.

I was telling Nina today, why and how did we become like that.

Staying back for lectures when we can be somewhere around in Singapore except being in sr, doing our own stuff

WHERE'S JC1 ? Screwed

I feel myself slacking away these few days. Everybody's like studying already. Opening their books whenever they have free time or calling me out to study. Makes me feel super stressed whenever an unproductive day just goes by like that.

Take for example today

I went home, eat. Sleep throughout the whole day already. Woke up at 8pm

There goes friday.

Best of all, i got tons of homework left to do. And for cny, i got no time to do at all.

Next week is ganna be superrr screwed for me. Dang.

I cannot wait for camp ya know. Last week of the march holidays. It's nice to work with people that i can talk with. Makes things more efficient ---> increase in productive capacity ---> .... ---> LRAS curve shift to the right.

(Cheena's ganna say i'm an econs freak. Assssshole)

I got a freaking nice Friend! Let me introduce you to him.

Freaking hp said this.

"Eyes kana blinded, i feel so damn bastard. Yet, towards u, it feels like nothing. LOL. HAHAHA"

Friends like this are hard to find in this age eh?

Totally agree.

Fuck you hp. :D

Stfu (:

& he said my blog song's is nice. Now i gotta change. I take it as an insult to me. I dun wanna have the same taste as him. ;D

Oh here's another one!

Freaking fellow teo sms-es are predictable.

"Lol!! Hahaha!! Fuck u!! Lol XD hahaha. (7 words later ). XD Hahaha.

Sometimes it's 1 whole paragraphs of these words.

Imagine how my inbox looks like.

Ohhh, and i got rejected by Super-stressed-up laoahum 3-4 times in a row this week.

My heart break already. Hahaha & this time more than a million pieces. A million x 4.

4 Million pieces. HAHAHA

Cheena still owes me Dinner. Not good to owe over new year you know! HAHAHA.

I got this friend who starts with the word "fuck" infront and ends with the word "fuck" or "what the fuck" at then end of the sentence. She claims that i influence her to swear. But that isn't true. Swearing IS your natural talent bitch. It beats econs, hands down eyes closed. HAHA

And you cannot snap your fingers. Dun ever snap it again. HAHAHA

Well, i shall not talk about bimbo. She's practically the joke everyday in school. Lao ____ ___. HAHA

Kay, this one headlines

MET BIGFLIRT ON THURSDAY.

If you're reading this, here's our analogy of your mind before you die. Cause ya know, they say images of your life will flash past you when you die. This is how it goes:

GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS SHANNON EMILY EILEEN GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS SHANNON EILEEN EMILY GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS EILEEN EMILY SHANNON GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS.

HAHAHAHA & although tan qian shang gan qing but...

You still owe boon 10 bucks.

I feel such a bastard for exposing people's jokes. But then again. These are the things that make my life so freaking enjoyable. These are the things that when things dun go the way i want it to be or when i'm practically screwed up,

I have something that will brighten my day. Hohoho

Thanks.

Bye ;D

Live ;D

Tuesday, February 9, 2010; ( 7:28 PM )

Help me leave behind some reason to be missed.

School's been kinda great all this while. The college practically looks like a fish market now, with all the jc1's around the whole school. It isn't as empty as it used to be. Well, it's great. At least there's more vibrancy in srjc. ;D

Yesterday was ok, make up lessons was very painful. That's about it.

Gp compre test today, on gm crops. Hah! Lucky i took geography in secondary school. Wasn't that bad, i'm hoping for a pass. :D

The last 15mins was extremely long. I think the tutors mistook the time.

Lots of work to be done. I came to realize that we should read often. You'll never know when those information will be used, be it socially or academically.

Chinese new year is just around the corner,

I got my clothes, got my hair cut just now. By chinese new year it should have grown at least 1 cm. Cannot wait for all the goodies and going around to bai nian. Hohoho.

It's a festive to celebrate before... Common test starts. Screw it.

Ya know, i've got hell lots of things to say.

But time isn't on my side.

I guess, we've really moved on with our lives.

It's sad, but it's a fact. Sigh

Bye ;D

Live ;D

Friday, February 5, 2010; ( 9:36 PM )

I'm strong on the surface, not all the way through

Hi to all the humans on Earth!

1) Strepsils works wonders. So please suck it when you all got a cough. Serious!

2) It's the most i-want-to-scold-vulgar-but-cannot-do-it feeling when 3 people greets you by saying "HI BITCH" when you just said hi. HAHA.

3) I am innocent. Proven by some 2s16 peeps. HAHAHA

In short, this week was the most awesome week since jc2 ever started. Super lots of fun, lots of screaming, made quite a lot of new friends, talk to super random people. Best of all, get to see all the freshmen! Gahh, joking on the last one ;D

Anyway, i got nothing to talk about monday because it's just plain boring.

So i shall just skip that & go to tuesday

Tuesday

Station games! Okay, it turned out better than i thought! And on the previous day i was still psyco-ing myself that it will be fun, it will be fun.

Riddle riddle on the wall wasn't the most fun game in orientation. BUT! I think the people that i worked with during that whole period of time was the most awesome-best-powerpack. And i got to know some of my primary school friends! Which obviously they remember me and i dun remember them. Talked to some og friends and it was kinda funny. It's fun to be involve in orientation, one way or another ;D.

Before i forget!

THANKS RYAN FOR THE REVIVE DRINK. YOU ROCK TO THE MAX.

Anyway, everything went super well on tuesday.

Just that going back to class at 3 kinda suck. There was also D.c circuits test. Din really study for it. But somehow got a B, so i'm kinda happy already ;D

Wednesday

Last day of station games. Kinda wish it did had to end so early. I was just starting to get warmed up only! Things went much smoother today, more time to slack.

And here i want to say.

POWERPACK DUO AH :D

Cca trials after that. It was kinda messy at first. Partly cause i forgot to brief those who are not trying out for their ntu shoot on what we suppose to do. That's partly my bad. But anyway, got things sorted out soon. Move the benches and stuff, this and that and all the jazz.

152 PEOPLE SIGN UP.

HOW COOL IS THAT. HAHAHA.

Screaming and shouting and pulling people do help afterall.

Had small chats here and there with the people. They look super bored cause they got to wait super long. Kinda nice ;D

See-ing them do the trial brings back lots of memories man. It seem like 2 days ago since join-ed shooting & look at all the fun and awesome people i have in shooting now.

Best of the world.

Thursday

BORING. DUN WISH TO ELABORATE. Lessons as per normal. And i dun understand alot of things. I freaking got a B for my ionic equilibrium test. Take a knife and kill me please. Give me that 1 pathetic mark lah! Crap.

BUT SR PICNIC WAS FUN TO THE MAX.

Walk around, find people, play some games. Crack some jokes make some noise. Woohoooooo!

ASSHOLE CHEENA WENT OFF WITHOUT GOING SR PICNIC.

ASSHOLE. HAHAHA

Friday

Fuck the B for my dc circuits. But whatever.

Ah, finally it's friday! School as per normal. Bimbo had 1 eye big and 1 eye small. Din know why also. But aiya, she's practically small everywhere, except. HAHAHA. It's been a long time since i see bigflirt and bitch. Though bigflirt more. Aww, we should really meet up one day.

Anyway, cca 2nd trials was super fun also! It was funny watching the freshmen take the guns and try shooting. Talked to quite a lot of them and as expected, many went over to try rifles instead of pistols.

It was fun talking to the jc1s. Especially those from sengkang, got more in common you see & some of them actually came from the last badminton batch, which is the one after our's. What a miracle. LOL. There are some which i really want them to come in. They got nice personalities, funny people. John john. HAHA

Lots of events coming up. Common test, camp planning and stuff. I like, makes my life so much better.
Chinese new year's around the corner. Please please ulcer go away. I haven thought what to wear for chinese new year yet. I shall spend some time to think about it tomorrow.

Oh and here, i want to extend my thanks to quite alot of people. In order of the dates,

Tuesday and Wednesday

Thanks to DESIREE, WAN TENG, BUVANA - for making station games so so so so much fun

Wednesday and Friday

Thanks to SIGIT, LYNETTE - for helping and coordinating the recruitment + cca trials

Thanks to everybody who help out, be it in one way or another. THANKSS!

I really deeply appreciate all the help! Let's make camp another success! ;D

Bye ;D

Live ;D