Recognition

Hellooo humans, and blogger, i've suddenly got the motivation to blog after doing so much work and slacking the whole day yesterday. There's 17 days left to gp promos and about 22 days left to promos.
Was calculating some scores just now, and i need to pass econs like, pass econs for promos to get a D overall, and get at least 67 over 100 for chemistry to get A overall and 81 over 100 for maths to get A overall. Maths looks super impossible, but hell with it, i'm ganna get full marks. Like, real.
After all that differentiation and that ridicously hard maths paper on thursday, there comes a conclusion whereby getting 81 for maths is indeed, HARD.

Right, when studies gives you hell, take it and throw it back at them. When the question amazes you, put a dam right smack circle in there with radius of equal length and write, NOTE you dumbass.
I was thinking yesterday night before sleeping, what the shit am i going to do for this whole 17 days i have left. How am i ganna improve my econs maths and stuff. And obviously, i slept halfway while doing that. When i woke up, i lied there, staring at my celing with the pillow on my head, it's a sunday.
Quite a few months back, i thought it was okay, I MUST pass promos, din really thought of doing well. Then, after some time, i realised, shit, i wanna pass promos, i want to do well in it tooo. Cause if i don't, and if i don't do well for A levels, i aint freaking going to retain and retake A levels. No way. I've decided, i'm going to study hard and really really hard, to ace my promos, to hell with what i get for overall.

Dam, i forgot that saving an email causes me too reattach all my files back. This is so screwed.

There's this awesome person i want to thank but i dun think i have the chance to already. I dunno where she is now, but sure, i've almost forgotten about her, until teachers day.
There's this chinese idiom, yi ri wei shi, zhong shen wei shi.
Or something like that, i suck in chinese, so pardon me yo!

She was my, secondary 2 DnT teacher, and apparently my cca teacher also, which means i see her like almost everyday. I used to hate cca, i skipped alot of it, along with dingjie and the rest, cause it really suck. Or maybe, i din realise how fun it could be.
Then set in the orange form introduced by idk who, which totally suck, because ya, it just sucks. It just coincendally, happen, that every time i had dnt, was the day that i had cca also. And almost everytime, she will come over and tell me, infront of the whole class sometimes, today got cca. And then i'll be like shit, "now cannot pon already, must go. wah sian x100"

Dam, i really hated her at that time.

And obviously i had to go. And this continued for quite some timee, and suddenly, without realising why, i just found cca to be really really very fun with the rest. I began going to every session and stuff. Well, media had really changed me. It can be the most no life cca to many, but shit, it's not. That batch of people, especially andy will know, it's one of the most fun cca. No, not because of what it does, it's cause of the people in it.
Nope, they are not nerds, they are people i really appriciated for being my friend, that i know them, and a few that made an impact in a matter of seconds or just by walking pass me while talking to their friends. I learnt many things during the whole time from sec 2 to sec 4.
From vulgarities to life lessons.
To topic, she left for nie, the last time i heard. I regret, not thanking her, not saying goodbye.
Cause without her,
I will never be in a jc
I will never have all these good friends with me
I will never be this person who will joke with you all day long, laughing so loud you find it wierd.
Most importantly,
I will never ever be what i am now.
She changed my life, by just forcing me to go cca. JUST going cca. I'm seriously in debt to her. She's the only person, that i am forever grateful to for scolding me and forcing me to go cca. She's one hell of a teacher.
Now, i dunno where she is, even if we cross roads now, i may not recognise her. But if i ever do recognise her, I'll walk up to her and say.
Thank you,
Mrs chen.

It's midnight now, and there's maths tomorrow. Gotta go get some sleep.
I dislike people who criticise my actions, if you're not happy with it, buzz off! You can jolly well shut your trap, cause you dun even have the simplest idea why i do that.
I read this from _____ blog, "we are sad, because we are afraid to let go."
Forever, is a word born out of fear of losing it.

Bye ;D


P.s Despite our busy schedule and mugging, you're still on my mind! ;D


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